rantventrant idk

random as hell

i cant organise my thoughts

this sucks
the silence is louder than ever, i still hear it all
all the sirens, all the birds, all the kids outside
but there's still nothing to hear
not even your words

cassette player,
playing whatever is recorded repeatedly
predictable and stuck in a loop
or not open to change

stupid background noise
always there,
maybe even comforting,
but not always noticed
not even needed

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searching for the stars
sparkling in the night sky
i see your eyes blinking
oh, how beautiful they are

i finally take the steps
after hesistating
over and over again
and i will never forget
how you held me that day