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am I the only one who thinks asperger's syndrome shouldn't have been lumped into ASD?

so for context, i'm diagnosed on the autism spectrum, have been since I was about 5. The thing is though, I feel like ASD being a spectrum disorder has only hindered me rather than helped me. a lot of people argue that the ASD label promotes diversity and inclusion, but in my point of view, I think it really only promotes stereotypes. like, when people hear the word "autism" those who aren't educated on it just assume I mean the stereotypical definition of autism. this has screwed me over so many times when it comes to interviewing for jobs. for my first job, I didn't even disclose my diagnosis, which just resulted in me being fired for being "unfriendly" and "strange" when it was simply asperger's traits that made me come off that way. but I can't just say I have Asperger's anymore, because someone will always be there to "correct" me. and when I say I have autism, i'll either get turned down for a job, or given too many accommodations that I don't even need.

When I was in high school, I remember being taken to a separate classroom where a teacher stood over my shoulder and basically did my work for me from the backseat. when I took my own notes in class, a teacher would come to me after class and give me her own notes. I would say I don't need them cause I did it myself, and she'd tell me according to policy she has to do this for me, and to just use her notes. so I stopped doing anything myself. I thought, if the world thinks I cant do anything myself, then why even try? then I graduated and all of a sudden the world expects me to do everything myself, and I had no idea how.

Asperger's didn't make me disabled. the school system calling it autism and training me to be dependent on them for everything is what made me disabled. i'm almost 21 now and i'm still in the process of unlearning that dependency, and I'm still trying to get a job by masking my asperger's traits, such as forcing myself not to stim, and to make eye contact even if its painful. I hate my diagnosis of autism and I wish the DSM-5 never combined them.


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