a revolation? 06.26.2025

i dont actually think i LIKE men. i find men attractive but i actually hate men, i completely despise them, even in friendships i consistently insult them and lowkey mean it. in relationships it feels like im tied down to a rock at the bottle of a lake. i think the only reason i date men is because they are available for some reason and cuz i find them attractive but lowkey the only times ive actually liked a man it was a transman or they reminded me of a lesbian and even then i physically recoiled when they did something that reminded me they were a man.

i think i just like girls, girls are attractive and i only actually like men who act like girls. lesbians most hot, girls also hot, men hot but only sometimes and only if they look like lesbians and fit the weird ugly guy standard i have for men. 

also if theri are spelling gamrmr errors im too lazy ti go ovr it and read it to fix it ebcasue brain is rotted and dont know how to fix it. sleep maybe. i havent sleep since 12pm YESTERDAY and its currently 7am.

i think im a lesbian disguised as a bisexual