home but in a nonhuman way

TW: vent/rambelling 

i feel like im always saying that i want to go home, until i get to my house, and i realize that this doesnt feel right either

i feel an urge to return home but i cant, because its not possible

im human, and i cant go where i belong

i will never move like im supposed to, or live where im supposed to, or be able to act like myself becuase for the most part it isnt even possible

i feel so stuck here in this house, in this body, in this world

i dont know what to do