I'm Back After 3+ Years. Here's What Went on Since Then.

Back in my freshman year high school, I used to wear a red shirt, with black letters and silver, glitter-y text outline, that said "Here I Am. What Are Your Other Two Wishes?" Okay, no one on here nor any other platform I currently manage said that, but here I am after a three-year hiatus. Let me update on what's going on and what it means to be back here.

Health: The Key To Being Rich

Since 2022, I had minor health issues which I thought was major. All in the name of trying to lose weight, it triggered more than I was expecting. I didn't know I had plenty of underlying issues that went with it, majority of which were mental, derived from excessive burnout and stress, all which costed me jobs I used to have. However, going into 2023, and having had a remote job, I thought it was the perfect time to focus on my health. While I've gradually had improvements since 2024, it took a long while but it was worth it. I learned to take it easy, meditate and best of all, get plenty of sleep. Not to say I'm a work-a-holic, but I personally hate having nothing to do and want to get things done. It also doesn't help that prior to the 2020 lockdowns, I'd surround myself with those not wanting to work toward a goal, nor constantly call off work just because, yet they get angered when their hours are reduced or they're let go. Nevertheless, the years 2022 and 2023 were years I took time to focus on health. After so many doctor visits, nothing is wrong with me, but I still, even today, take the time to improve on my health. It's made a world of difference.

Career Change: From Entertainment To Science and Education

Making a career change isn't easy and I've had plans to do so way back when I was 21 years old. However, reason I jumped back into entertainment, that is video production, is because I had no idea where to begin nor start. After another 8 to 10 years, it went nowhere and decided to get into Science, Computers and Mathematics--something my girlfriend suggested along the way since she knew I was better at than producing videos. As I attended to my health, and trying to get into video production one last time, it wasn't until mid-2024 that I called it quits with everything in relation to cameras and video projects. The last and final project I made was in March 2022 and decided to retire officially. I sold off every piece of videomaking equipment I owned, though I still have a video camera for smaller stuff, in case. I don't regret all I've learned and the people I met, but if I'm being honest with myself, video isn't fun anymore. (Back in 2001, it was very niche, but nowadays, everyone knows how to create a video. I've contributed the ideas I had that time and am fine carrying on with something else.)

Of all things, why Math? Having dabbled with computer programming and website development since my early 20s and wanting to learn to build a more "dynamic" website, it led me into problem solving. It helped make Math more understandable and have been on and off about it ever since. Today, I read and self-study everything Mathematics and I make time to write small programs demonstrating that. Heck, my girlfriend developed a huge confidence in Math having helped her with it. For that, and having met with my cousin last year, who's a senior software engineer, he was encouraging me to get into both Mathematics and Computer Science. Despite everything said about AI and such, I'm still making the time to learn, study and practice regardless. All that and my cousin made me feel secure about this career change, and this is the happiest I've ever felt. From Math History to Topology, I want to learn it all! It has made me at peace and I'm thankful for that. Speaking of peace...

State of the World: Yearning for Peace

A lot has happened in this first half of the year, and will not make any kind of commentary or rant about it. In fact, the last time I said about keeping my political views to myself, a former coworker called me out and shamed me for it back in 2016. I responded with a meme I created calling out on her hypocritical behavior: She speaks about her views and preach that others speak theirs, but if their views differ from hers, she slanders and shames them about being "part of the problem." She completely stopped calling me out since then yet still goes on with their tirade about things going on today (I've happily lost touch with her). It's incredible, and I'm convinced that it's not politics that's the problem, but insecurity. Happiness is found from within along with acceptance, but these people aren't ready to have that conversation. Being that I was active on Instagram, despite trying to shun off social media altogether with the exception of SpaceHey and YouTube, it's mind-numbing seeing people "go off" on things we have no control over, and these people rationalize in the strangest ways, saying the weirdest things. On behalf of myself and my citizenry, I know and am confident in my contributions to this country, but it's hard and depressing when doing good things still makes you a target of shame and slander. In other words, unhappiness, along with extreme jealousy and envy, is the new "pandemic." It's like being yourself is frowned upon, yet people swear by it all the time.

Because of that, I've been yearning for peace, and found it having met my girlfriend, doing Math, reading books and by logging on here. So far, the people on SpaceHey have been very civilized which makes me very happy; I wish I knew this sooner. Granted, I'm slowly approaching my 40s and being the old soul that I am, I have no time for drama and trying to teach and help others to comprehend and lead them to the truth. I've been doing this for years before the 2020 lockdowns, but again, I still get told to "shut up" or how I'm "wrong" or that I'm a "conspiracy theorist," etc. Like I said, having witnessed these behavioral patterns among my former coworkers and random videos of people on the internet, I feel it's an insecurity issue on their part. Other than that, it doesn't concern me that I'm hoping to get more followers or more 'likes' on the things I share and post and I'm completely fine being and occupying this small space on the internet. If what I post interests you, thank you for your time; If it doesn't, thank you anyway. Whenever I log in here, I feel peace, and besides my own website, that's something I almost never feel when I access/log into other websites and platforms. It's a rare feeling. I found that SpaceHey has an app which I downloaded and use from time to time, but personally, I growing tired of owning a smartphone. After this phone wears off, I plan to downgrade to a "dumbphone" as I barely get any calls and texts anyway.

All in all, I'm doing much better and feeling much better. There are some foods I can't eat and have to avoid but I've been taking in plenty of healthy options which is making a difference. My reading and self-studies have been great and peaceful--the kind of Life I've been wanting and continually working towards. I've been listening to more radio than ever and haven't had the slightest interest in streaming or TV, even though I occasionally keep up with sports, along with listening to more classical music. For entertainment, I watch YouTube videos from food reviews to video game longplays and casino slot machine videos, and sometimes college lectures. I've been reading nonfictions books, books based off of movies and comic books, while enjoying the sounds of the wind, birds chirping, children screaming and running, and cars driving by. This peace is the Life I've been wanting all this time, and I hope you seek it too! Honestly, there's too much noise and chaos out there, including other social media platforms, and I'm happy expressing some of what's going on here.

Nevermind the world out there: seek your own peace and preserve it! You'll be thankful you did.

Thank you to all for reading! I will write and make more posts here soon! Thank you SpaceHey!