25/6/2025 BLOG ENTRY -WEDNESDAY-

i haven't been posting for a few days but i finally got some spare time to use and i decided to make a post

it was pretty busy today, i'm not in a mentally well spot right now, i had a fight with my mom just yesterday and i'm not usually a rule breaker and somehow today i snuck in my phone. 4 context, my country kinda restricts having phones in school and will confiscate them if we were found with our phones. which is pretty ironic bcos they made this whole big deal of a program called 21st century education but we still use a fuck ton of books in classes (0-0)

i thought that I'd feel out of place sneaking it in, i've always played by the rules (i'm just too tired and I tried to stay out of trouble as much as possible + i don't want to get any dismerit just in case it might affect my record) maybe bcos i've been independent for a few years now so it didn't really feel different from a normal school day but i did have some few close calls with the teachers (i'm definitely not doing this ever again unless I'm staying for extra curricular)

I also had to skip my extra curricular activities mostly bcos i had to attend my cram school bcos our schedule started early for Wednesdays and I was still so mentally worn out from yesterday just from writing this blog i feel like i have this heavy thing weighing down on my back like i think my hypersomnia got even worse this even tho how much I wanted to nap less during the daytime.

writing this during my history prep class and I feel like just collapsing on to my bed after it finishes but i really can't with how I have my science class right after this even after I just had a heavy lunch to get through this i feel like any time soon i'm just gonna fall onto the floor and sleep the entire time.