A⃒l⃒e⃒X⃒’s⃒ T⃒r⃒e⃒S⃒h⃒…months?~ …..i dunno..its kinda awful

Hellooo internet!

I apologise for lack of posting..

I don’t really feel so good these days,or even better to say months 

I mean I’m alive at least :b

These days I just feel so down and most of times I just either panic or cry or both pfft

But seriously I feel soo sooo soo behind my peers..I feel like everyone sorted their lives already and know what to do with life while im failing badly.I don’t know what to do.I feel like I don’t have my own identity.

I feel like I have no quality,worth,or destiny

I feel like im born only to ruin my parents lives.I mean even though I know they love me I guess,but they probably expect me to turn back something like money or good grades

And I don’t have neither of this.

I know I shouldn’t just whine and complain about “h0w My LifE iS soO bAd” but i genuinely wish i could get a help or medication,anything that will make bit more alive.I can’t ask my parents for help because i know their answer will be same ..

“God will help”

Nahhh bro,if he really loved me and really want to help,he would’t eveen make me alive in first place…

Im sorry mama and dad.

I feel like I disappointed both of you.Im sorry.

But yeah as you can see,im not really alright…but I’ll try to get better.

Summer break is coming at least!!!!:3 I will hopefully get but better and also i will try to do more hobbies and learn that darn German 

AND SOON I WILL GO ON VACATION IN CROATIA YEEEYY!!!!!!!!

Im again apologise for not posting for a while.

I know barely anyone reads this but I just feel like it’s kinda an obligation;D

I will try to post more and also I will make an short photo dump?I will link it here:(not still posted)

Thankk you genuinely for reading this!!! >_< It means a lot to me <3