in sickness and in health...

i've been trying to get some work done but it all feels like kind of a mute point because even with medicine in me, i'm basically a wet piece of spaghetti right now. i'm like one non-restful night away from just saying fuck it and laying in bed all day, just not contributing -- sure, i'll feel like shit for it, but maybe it's what my body needs. "if you don't take a break, your body will make you take one," and all that noise.

i'm also fighting hard not to spend $80 on an arma angelus shirt someone's selling on depop because fuck knows i don't make the kind of money for that, but also i've never seen anyone sell one literally ever. i might just have to convince someone close to me to buy it as a christmas present -- even though, i'll still feel guilty about the price even if it is a present. i don't think there's much winning with any of these plans.

anyway, i have to med up, and then i'm going back to bed. i leave you a little bit sour because i was going to link my favourite version of the carrie musical here because i was about to watch it myself, but the productions been taken off youtube. upsetting.

if you're curious, it's the keaton whittaker version. i can at least tell you that.