Struggles with genuinity

The main reason I created my SpaceHey account was to generally be more open about my emotions and what I felt uncomfortable reaching out about; basically for me to be more genuine to myself and others. So, I created an account, filled in my profile to make it seem pleasantly acceptable. But it doesn't feel genuine. At least, not to me?  It's ok, it looks like me on the surface. It's not fake. But it also wasn’t what I was aiming for. I think I tried to curate something instead of expressing something

So yeah. I sat with that for a while lol. It’s weird how easy it is to slip into performative stuff even when you’re trying not to. Like, I wasn’t trying to be fake! I just wanted to be readable! But I think sometimes genuinity doesn’t read well, and that’s where it gets complicated ,

I guess I’m wondering… How do you people deal with this problem:

How do you balance being yourself without it feeling forced or performative? How do you make your profile or posts feel real, but still safe? Do you ever feel like you’re being honest, but it still doesn’t feel like it?

What does being genuine online even mean anymore?? (!!!!)

No pressure to answer or anything, just putting it out there. Pls comment if you have thoughts or tips or whatever. I’d like to hear about it :-].

This was originally just a bulletin thought lol. I should write blogs more often :V