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Hello!!

 I think I'm a little sad today.

I discovered a secret I shouldn't have known, and because of that, I feel like I'm losing my only friendship.

My best and only friend, when I grabbed her phone that she left with me while she was busy, I was curious to see her Instagram conversations and accidentally discovered some old secrets she hadn't told me.

I thought we were friends, to the point where we could share secrets without shame.

I also saw friends she'd never told me about.

I didn't feel bad because she had other friends besides me.

But

I felt inadequate, that I was less valuable than her other friends, and that I always thought we were best friends because she had told them secrets she hadn't told me.

I always told her all my secrets and everything that happened to me, but it turned out I was the naive one.

After that happened, I cried for a quarter of an hour. I didn't tell her what I'd seen, and I didn't have the courage to ask her.

I'm not a revenge seeker, so I wouldn't threaten her with her secrets.

I tried to found excuses not to believe it, but I couldn't. Now I can't deal with her the way I used to. I feel alone. She was my last hope and the only person I had left to blindly trust. I'm sorry I wrote a lot and the text became really long, but that's because I couldn't explain exactly how I felt, and this is the only place I can talk about it comfortably.