I AM NOT ACTIVE ENOUGH

hello. im sorry im not active i like this site alot but sigh i might not be social enough for sites like this. i also dont likr going on my computer because im scared ill break it also im scared i should be doing something else i think that today ill do absolutely nothin and then ill grind tomorrow so don't expect to see me tomorrow you know.

im becoming more and more autistic by the day. and not autistic in the cute way that people like to kawaiifiy on the internet. u know where they only like popular things and when they do its only slightly more than normal intrests and are loud and annoying and they want too make friends but their just toooo ouutgoing everyone is ANNOYED by them and hahahhah they have adhd tooooo so they cant pay attentionin classssssss so they get badddddd grades hahahahhaha isnt that so funnnnny lets do a group project together hahahahahahhahahaha. boo hoo!!!!!!!! i dont want to make friends i hate interacting with peopel i hate ITTTTTTT. its hard anfd i ahave to come up with every single word and online its not so bad but in real life its reallllly hard becuase i ha ve to do it fast and its hardddd unless i am talking to someone i know well and i dont know alot of people that well. and i dont like talking about most things most people do. i just wanna talk about john egbert and dolls and homestuck and john egbert!!!!!! i wish people where niec to me more reall nice to me and they liked me sooooooooo much and i didn;t have to do anything to make them so nice. irl  i have to draw to make people like me and some people also hate me when i do that. maybe like me like i like john egbert but not really because no one can like anyone in the way i like john egbert.

also about john egbert i got a johnn plush and i love him sooooo much i take him everywhere i can and i also ordered the official one and i cant wait until i get him i am going to feed himm so much bloooooooood!!!!!!!!!!! i already gave him enough bloddooooddddd my current plush so he is nice and fed and plump and fulllllllllllllll.  not that ill thorw him away once i get the offical one. i lovr him so ill nevrer get rid of them and it is my dream to cuddle abillion john plushies every night and i will be soooooooooo happy!!!!

i mostly use my computer to play mine craft and right now im making john egberts house in minecraftt but im scared because i cant exactly tell what the base of it is. i made it this kind of square heart shape

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like thatttttt!!!!! and i hoep this is good enough because i really want johns house to be perfect even though its just minecraft.

also i am loosing my sense of self no ones gonna read this

oky bye see u