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its been so difficult just doing it. it wasnt this bad not too long ago..
these past three weeks have been the worst nights sleeping in my life. im awake until somewhere between 3am to 5am and i sleep past noon. my boyfriend is worried about me and i can tell he feels neglected when i dont respond all damn day until 3pm. even when i have risen, i dont do jack for hours on end. while i am supposed to be enjoying my summer, theres this parasite in my head whispering to me about being a lazy sack of shit and how childish i am for not already having a job and saving money. i havent even started on the first doable scholarship given to me. i feel stuck in limbo right now. this is my last year of legal minor-hood and all i can concern myself with is what would make someone else proud. and i keep thinking about my mom (not positive) and im just stressing myself out further.
im doing what i can and i understand that isnt enough. what shall i do then if i dont have that more to give? whats the point of me then?
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MegaSpino158
Youβll get out of this cycle. You dont have to start on the big stuff right away, just start out with mundane stuff youβve wanted to do like for example reading a book youβve been wanting to. Then start with what bigger stuff and keep building on that til you get to the big stuff.
You donβt have to keep giving more and more, just do what you can
Donβt know if this helps at all but youβll get through this tough time, trust