why do i feel so anxious?(╥﹏╥)

Why do I feel so anxious about making friends, it doesn't matter if they're virtual or not, I feel so anxious about talking to them and creating meaningful bonds, this intensifies when I go to talk to someone from the United States or any non-Brazilian person (❕️❕️IT'S NOT PREJUDICE❕️❕️) I feel so scared of being abandoned for being “weird”, I feel afraid of people judging me, I don't understand it, I just get too anxious to even breathe properly, sometimes I get so overwhelmed that I feel like I want to cry. I just want to be a social person and have lots of cool friends 。゜゜('Ｏ`) ゜゜。