what the hell is wrong with me lately

i want to fucking throw up. like all the timw. my stomach feels too full. it feels wrong to be full or hydrated. i cant remember anything. like at all. and every time i try and do something i get distrcted with something else over and over and over to the point that i cant get anything more than halfway done. the last few years of my life blur together. i barely remeber any of my past. genuinley. it scares me. a lot of the time i feel like i have revelations, like i understand things clearly now and have properly connected the dots, but every new one contradicts the last. i dont trust my own brain. i screamed at the top of my lungs earlier because i saw a bug, and later when i felt and itch on my leg i jerked it and jumped up, as if expecting there to be a bug there. im never this paranoid, im not even scared of bugs. what do i do. i cant remember anything.