JULY 20

Its been Six months. Six months of unemployment. I took a break to work on my mental health. I was figuring out why the world was up against me. If it was me working out of ego. If it was someone I hurt that was seeking revenge rather than talk to me like an adult. If it was intentional just because someone out there is jealous of me, which honestly you shouldn't. In some ways I was wrong but also wronged. I guess you could say 50/50 since my scales where balanced in the Ethers. 

 I dont know what path to take from here. Not sure what to do. I feel like I have writers block. artist block. finance block. Life meaning block. Just a buncha blocks really. 

Ive been home with my children. Enjoying their company. World events... simple things of life. Financially I'm just not understanding the concept. Im sure it will come to me now that its out there. (I hope) if you're reading this. Thank you for letting me borrow your eyes. 

I dont have a niche. yeah there's things I like to do. There's things I could do but I dont see myself doing them forever. 

Matter of fact the only thing I see is being taken care of by some noble men that had me F@#ked up and a huge change of heart after reviewing my digital foot prints. Also the realization that even though people betray and hurt me... I still care that their bills are paid and there is food on them tables. Sort of like a guilt trip. The only way for all them brothers to feel calm and sane without medication is when they help me financially in abundance, stability, opportunity flow.

I guess I've felt this way since reading about delulu the only solulu. 

For now I just gotta manage till this starts. 

Over and out. 

wow. wait! I just had to include the following. I dont know who needs to read it but if you feel compelled to write it down DO IT! 

THE EYES ARE ALL MOVING, DISSOLVING THE CHARM YOU WEAR INTO THE TRUTH YOU CANNOT HIDE!!!!