i dOn'T uNdErStAnD hIm 😾

i'M sO fRuStRaTeD wItH mEn 🖤💀🥀

aFtEr hAvInG mY hEaRt sHaTtErEd lAsT yEaR aNd tHeN gEtTiNg sLiGhTlY dIsApPoInTeD a fEw mOnThS aGo, mY sYsTeM dEcIdEd tO fEaR rElAtIoNsHiPs aNd sTaY aWaY fRoM sErIoUs sTuFf 💜

bUt tHeN i mEt tHiS gUy... iSkA. hE's nIcE, i lIkEd hIm aS a fRiEnD bUt... wHy dOeSn'T hE tAlK tO mE lIkE mY oThEr gUy fRiEnDs? 😼 hE wAs fLaRtY, aNd i tHoUgHt "oKaY hE's cUtE aNd i lIkE hOw hE tAlKs tO mE, i’d kIsS hIm i gUeSs" sO i pLaYeD aLoNg... bUt hErE’s tHe tHiNg — hE’s fRoM fUcKiNg tIjUaNa 😾 (mY bAd fOr aSsUmInG hE wAs fRoM mExIcO cItY jUsT bEcAuSe wE wEnT tO tHe sAmE cOnCeRt 💀🗿)

aNd tHaT wAs a hUgE dEaL bReAkEr. i wAsn'T lOoKiNg fOr a rElAtIoNsHiP, bUt nOw i cAn’T eVeN hAvE a sIlLy lItTlE mAkEoUt bEcAuSe i hAvE tO wAiT uNtIl fEbRuArY fOr tHe nExT cOnCeRt 🕸️🥀

i tHoUgHt aBoUt kEePiNg iT fRiEnDlY bUt hE cOnTiNuEd fLaRtInG. wHy dO tHaT iF yOu cAn’T eVeN sEe tHe pErSoN fOr mOnThS?? lEaViNg iT aT jUsT fLaRtInG fElT pOiNtLeSs. tHeN hE sTaRtEd hInTiNg—nOt sUbTlY—tHaT hE wAnTeD a sErIoUs rElAtIoNsHiP 

i tHoUgHt, mAyBe i’M bEiNg tOo cLoSeD oFf, sO i lEt mYsElF gEt cArRiEd aWaY. tHe fLaRtInG iNtEnSiFiEd, hE wAs sOoOo sWeEt, aNd i sTaRtEd cAtChInG fEeLiNgS 🖤❤️‍🩹

aNd tHeN—hE jUsT sToPpEd. nO mOrE cOnStAnT mEsSaGeS. i uSeD tO gEt “i mIsS yOu” iF i dIdN’t rEpLy fOr 20 mInUtEs, aNd nOw hE dOeSn’T rEsPoNd fOr sEvEn hOuRs. wHeN hE dOeS, hE sEnDs tHe dRyEsT tExTs i’vE eVeR rEaD 💀😾

fAcEbOoK dOeSn’T tElL mE wHeN hE’s aCtIvE bUt i sEe hIm pOsTiNg, sO i kNoW hE’s jUsT iGnOrInG mE 😿

aNd iT pIsSeS mE oFf. i wAs gEtTiNg uSeD tO hIs aTtEnTiOn, i lIkEd iT. bUt mOrE tHaN tHaT, i hAtE tHe fAcT tHaT hE cAn’T bE rEsPoNsIbLe. wHy gHoSt?? wHy nOt jUsT sAy “i’M nOt iNtErEsTeD” oR “i gOt bOrEd”? jUsT sAy sOmEtHiNg 💀

hE rEaLlY tRiGgErEd sOmEtHiNg iN mE. i'M sO fUcKiNg aNnOyEd 😾