Mood: Nostalgic, Bittersweet, Funny in Hindsight, Just a Hint of Petty
Okay, todayâs energy? Full-on storytelling. Grab your snacks, because this isnât just a storyâitâs a tale of betrayal, midterms, suspicious accusations, and an emotional plot twist. And yeah, some parts are still hilarious in hindsight.
Letâs roll it back to 10th grade. I wasnât exactly a lonerâI mean, I got along with everyone. But I only had two actual best friends, the kind who knew what kind of chaos Iâd stir up before I even said anything. Then came 11th grade. New section, unfamiliar faces, and I felt like a transfer student in my own school. The only people I vaguely knew were four girls from my old class. Letâs call them Joyce, Halo, Ree, and Lotus.
I naturally gravitated toward them because⊠well, familiarity. We werenât close before, just classmates who nodded at each other during roll call. But that changed fast. Within a month, we were sharing snacks, gossip, and way too many inside jokes. Joyce and I especially got closeâwe were basically joined at the hip. And then entered Terra. She fit in seamlessly, and suddenly, we were a little squad.
Meanwhile, my old best friends? Yeah⊠not really there anymore. I kept reaching out, but it felt like Iâd been replaced. They already had their new trio going. I was sad at first but also okay because I wasnât alone. We still stayed in touch, met up now and then, and there were no hard feelingsâjust that sad space where closeness used to be.
Now enter 12th grade. The real senior year. Everyone knew I was chronically onlineâlike Tumblr-stalking, Discord-ranting, blog-writing level online. So obviously, I had online besties. It was a thing.
During midterms, my momâbeing the absolute savage she isâconfiscated my phone and laptop to save me from myself. Honestly? She had a point. I was spiraling into distraction. So, I gave in. But that meant I couldnât talk to my online friends.
So I asked Joyce to message them, just say Iâll be MIA for a bit. Totally casual. I even told her, âItâs fine if you keep talking to them.â I trusted her.
And thenâsuddenlyâradio silence. From all of themâJoyce, Halo, Ree, and Lotus. No texts. No calls. No eye contact at school. Like I had become invisible. I tried asking, âHey, whatâs going on?â but they flat out ignored me. Stone-cold. And that silence lasted a whole month.
I cried about it. Genuinely. I talked to my mum, whoâbless her heartâsaid, âIgnore them back. Donât beg people who donât respect you.â So I took her advice. I blocked them. Left the group chat. Tried to move on.
Then came the lunch break of doom. These girls literally cornered meâyes, like it was a high school movie. âWe want to confront you about something,â they said, forming a whole semi-circle.
I nodded, confused. Joyceâsweet, smiling, used-to-be-my-best-friend Joyceâgoes, âYour online friends? Theyâre fake, right? Just your alternate IDs?â
EXCUSE ME??? MAâAM??
I stood there like, Are you even hearing yourself?? These were people I had video called, sent voice notes to, actual living humans whoâd talked to my sister. Did they think I was secretly a tech genius with a voice-changing software and the time to catfish myself FOR YEARS?
And they werenât done. They said my pictures were âfrom Pinterest.â Girl. GIRL. I literally have a Pinterest account. Thatâs where I save my own moodboards and soft aesthetics. Youâre accusing me of reposting my own pictures?
Joyce was legit yelling in front of everyone like she was auditioning for a drama club production of Mean Girls: The Musical. My classmates were staring like it was live entertainment. And me? I was just trying not to cry or scream or both.
After that? I became a total loner. I didnât trust anyone. I didnât speak unless I had to. I went from confidently giving speeches in front of the school to barely being able to lift my eyes off the floor. They didnât just embarrass meâthey chipped away at the confidence Iâd built over years.
And yet? Now itâs one of those stories my family laughs about around dinner. Like, âRemember when Minnie was accused of talking to herself with fake IDs?â HAHA, hilarious now that Iâve survived it.
Now? Iâve got two ride-or-die online besties. Real ones. The kind who text back when I overthink, who hype me up when I post a selfie, and who donât accuse me of being five people at once. Theyâve filled that gap way better than anyone at school ever did.
So yes, I have no IRL friends anymore. But Iâve got love. And Iâve got people who believe in me.
And sometimes? Thatâs more than enough.
Love,
Minnieđ
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Cuprum Queen
Awh girl, Iâm so sorry :( Iâd seriously cry if I was confronted like this. Itâs insane. Glad youâre over it, and glad that you donât spend time with people who deadass say things like these about you.
Vader
totally not one of the ingredients in the tea mentioned above
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YEAH TOTALLY NOT THE HB MENTIONED
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