Why everything you do sucks (geniuely)

1 - You're putting too much responsibility on yourself. You're a loser, you wanna listen to better music, play better games, eat better, have better hygiene. What do you do? You do all of these at once. You leave the house listening to the most underground album you could find where you can't understand a lyric, then you're doing groceries, cleaning your house, signing up for an online spanish course, and you're ending the day playing two horror novels and four random itch.io games and doing your nails. Next morning, you wake up, and all the power you had yesterday is completely gone. You say, "but I'm not going to devote my WHOLE day to listening to an album and playing a new game, I have so much time in the day, that's so unproductive and boring!!". Phenomenal, are you trying to better yourself or listing off chores? No, you can't just wake up and decide you're cool now, you need to distribute it evenly, not because of how much time you have, but because if you check off all of the week's goals in a day, the rest of the week is just empty! Imagine how terrible our life would be if we had cars houses and success at 18. Where's the teen to adult transition? Where's the time for falling asleep, saying "today was a good day, I've done x y and z"? Was it really a good day if you had also done a, b, c, d, e, f, and g? Your monkey brain wants to say "yes, I love being productive!", but your emotional brain will say "fuck, I'm so overworked with stuff that's supposed to bring me joy...what is wrong with me? am I depressed or just r*tarded?", when in reality it's neither. You're just taking bettering yourself like it's cleaning a bathroom.

2 - You never step out from your works. How come every single lyric, beat, drawing, painting, clothing piece, and even your own voice sounds so terrible? Because you keep watching them like they're a baby!!! oh my fucking god STEP AWAY as soon as your work looks/sounds abhorrently ass it's your brain saying "HEY BOZO I'M FUCKING TIRED LET'S DO SOMETHING ELSE!!! I'M BRAINROTTING!!", pick the same work in two days and it'll look/sound heavenly, or it'll be so fun to work on you'll be done with it in no time. The world didn't suddenly start spinning in a different way, it's just that our brains get BORED!!!!! and HYPERAWARE!!!!! and you don't have to feel bored or tired, that's just how we're wired! Just how you can play a horror game and not be scared, but jump when your cat suddenly knocks on your door.

3 - You're doing it for the imaginary "them". You make something, you say, "huh, that's pretty good!", and you're about to post it, but then you get hit with "wait, it's just 'huh good', I could do better. PEOPLE are going to see this, THEY will think I'm a loser!", and you tweak it and tweak it to the point that it isn't what you want it's what THEY want. Sorry to break it to you, but THEY don't exist. There's a max of 10 ppl that actually give a fuck, and that's a MAX, besides them, maybe 20 give two fucks, and the rest has bigger problems in your life than you.

4 - You're pushing away what's made for you. If you have a dream of, let's say being a very popular guitarist with a band. You had it for a while, hadn't you? Why do you think your head keeps pushing it your way if it isn't made for you? Why do you give up just because it takes effort to accomplish something your brain is SCREAMING at you to do? Despite how primal we are, 50% of the time our head KNOWS what it's doing, and it's one of those. You won't push away your fate, unless you k;ll yourself of course. No matter how many times you say "it isn't for you", "you can't do it", "whatever", "I couldn't do that anyway", "I'm so terrible at this", "evr1 will make fun of me", "I'm not like xyz and I never will be", "who do I think I am?", "this was a stupid idea from the beginning", and whatever else, you CAN'T change what you're the best at, and you CAN'T escape the fate, not because of some spiritual bs (that I have nothing against), but because IT. WAS. WRITTEN. IN YOUR. D. N. A, DUMBASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

luv <3