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6/10/25

I've recently gone through a break up, the first one I've ever gone through, it was my first relationship and it lasted 2 and a half years. The relationship was never perfect, nor was I, but I wanted to do everything I could to try and learn and be the best for her, but I couldn't and I feel like I've failed. She's said during the break up that I didn't do anything wrong especially when the guys before me where horrible, she said I was able to show her what it means to be treated right in a relationship and that I'll be able to make someone really happy one day, however she simply just lost feelings for me. Didn't see me in the same romantical light as she once did, and now for the past couple of months before the breakup slowly started seeing me as a friend. This sucks, so badly, and the first 48 hours to a week we're the hardest because of how fresh it was, given it still very much hurts. However I've realized that theirs nothing more unattractive than someone not being attracted to you, or just not reciprocating that same general energy, so that's helped a little. I just wish It wasn't on someone I spent almost 3 years with. I'm trying to see this as a learning opportunity more than anything and try to motivate myself to move forward and move on, as that is what I need to do, and what she said would be for the best. I know for some, this is a weird thing to make public, especially on a public blog entry (even if its my first lol) but I'm simply just struggling to cope with it all and I just need to be able to get it out without having to think about it all day. Its highs and lows, one moment I'm fine, I feel normal and she's not on my mind, but then the next if I get something that reminds me of her, like the things we've done, the places we've gone too, the stuff we did together, watched, played, and just generally being able to spend time with her and doing a certain activity, or being at a certain place just reminds me of her it makes me feel like I have nails in my throat. I know I'm still young, and she was my first girlfriend, but it is just such a weird feeling to experience for the first time, especially because of how close we we're. If you got to the end of this, I thank you for listening <3