my summer is going to waste away and i know it.

i hate knowing that from the 20th june to the 22nd of september, my entire summer will consist of working, rotting on my pc or phone, lifting or sleeping. all of my irl's from school are too pre-occupied now to do stuff (exams, relationships, getting arrested) and i know no one else asides my boss (who i don't really want to interact with past work) who would be free enough to do anything w me. like yeah i have my online group and i like them as much as my irls, if not more. but i want to do something this summer that isnt on my PC, or in my town. i wanna go to edinburgh with my friends, climb a giant hill, fuck about in the city center, smoke weed or look at cool sunsets. and if i do this all alone i look out of place, like i shouldn't be there. it pains me very much. 2026 summer will be interesting because ill be 18 by then, but also because im flying to serbia for a week or two to meet a friend of 4-5 years. but i cannot wait a year.