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Of pretending that people care for me. Hell I don’t care. I care but I don’t care. Sometimes I care too much that someone cares too less and it’s painful. I don’t want to be here. I dont. It is what it is. Everything feels fake. Like i don’t exist. Like im just a being, floating around on a rock in the middle of space. I wish shifting was actually possible because I don’t want to be here. I wish to get high because out of everything, i don’t want to be in this world at least mentally or emotionally
Im tired
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alora :]
this has so much raw emotion, sometimes its best to just vent. if u ever need someone to talk 2, just dm me, ill try my best to be online :] just know your not alone, and you dont need to go thru whatever your going thru alone (i know, cliche and easier said than done, but still)
Thank you for the kind words, but you don’t have to waste your time. I’m just tired of fitting in no matter where I go. I can’t be myself because I don’t know how to. It’s like I forgot I never knew in the first place it kinda hurts. Trying to socialize with people because I mess up. I don’t stutter a lot when I’m alone, but when I’m with other people, I stutter a lot. And I cannot even say my own order when I’m ordering something in person at a fast food restaurant than online which is easier I do have to click and click on something and boom that’s it. When i try to order it isnt as easy irl than online.
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honeslty the like anxiety of ordering in person is so real, i used to have that problem but im slowly (but surely lol) getting over it!
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