Personal Blog (6/18/25)

I’m feeling so over mentally overwhelmed, it’s killing me mentally. I have been constantly hurting for so long just for my recent relationship breakage to amplify everything hurting in my soul. 

The pressure of making sure I focus on my life, the drama I see online (especially when it comes to my friends), my desire to love people to only neglect their emotions in the end because I couldn’t heal on my own time. 

Everything seems to be moving so fast and I can only take so much before I drown myself into an abyss. Constantly apologizing and trying to change while the effort doesn’t seem enough, nothing seems enough for anyone anymore. Absolutely nothing.

And I would say that I wanna go back simpler times but I never really had a time that simple in my life. Even with the more simple thoughts I had as a kid, my life was still complicated physically and socially. 

I don’t know how to cope with it anyone. I just want to numb myself again and again until I don’t have the pain anymore.