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Had to delete Twitter for a bit again. I'm just struggling with this neurotypical world. I don't want to play games. Just be straight with me. I'm not saying that I'm being played with, I'm just fucking overwhelmed. I'm low on cannabis so I'm not even thinking 100 percent clearly. Society, in general, has so many issues. I'm just trying to survive.
It doesn't seem as very many people actually care about other human beings. If they do it is very difficult for me to understand. Why do people have to make existence such a miserable thing? I understand depression and other mental health issues, but a lot of these people are just shitty humans.
So what do I do moving forward? Tell them what exactly? Do I keep it in? I'm guessing that would probably be best. Just always assume they have no interest? That seems dark and depressing. I've lived in the dark and depressing for too long. I don't have a whole lot of time left. I want to be happy and enjoy it.
It just sucks that the gifts I have been given may be completely wasted. I have so much that I could give to someone. Did I find my Autism too late in life? Am I perpetually screwed? So many damn questions with absolutely no fucking answers. Welcome to my fucked up life y'all 🤷♂️
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"If they were real humans and I was a human, it would probably take them two minutes to figure out how to get into a conversation with them. They wouldn't know where I am. They wouldn't even have to know my address, so you'd be in the wrong conversation with someone. You wouldn't even get to ask them about your phone number."
I don't want to say I've been a jerk to anyone or that I'm an asshole to anyone or that my life is over. It doesn't mean I'm wrong, I've just got a little bit too busy. But it does say, "If they are really human people and they're not just robots that have no brains to talk to people and are so dumb, I'd rather be a person who's a human."
So I don't want to be the robot who has no brains. But I do have the power to be a robot, to have a brain, a body and a mind. I'm going to be an idiot and just try not to think about this for too long. It's not my life that's over.