Is this too edgy for spacehey?

So I took a quick look at my past blogs and figured they needed a little bit of an update. I'm Erin. I'm 17. My life is a tangle of stress, anger, affection and fear. After 2 straight years of self pitying and absolute buffoonery, I found my way back to spacehey. It's always funny reading old things you used to write to yourself, at least it is to me. Though, it's hard to look past the fact that even though I said some pretty edgy and embarrassing pre teen shit, I was living through a really bad period of my past. It may be seen as attention seeking, but I know my life hasn't been what it could have been. I went through 2 family sexual assaults when I was 11 and younger and my family didn't treat the situation in the way they should have. I never had a father who cared about my actual well-being and I never had a mother who had any sense of empathy. Im 5 months away from my 18th birthday. If I want to be safe, I need to leave this place behind. I need to run away from the house i grew up in, the people who abused me, the life I am currently living. I don't know how after years of neglect and harm, I can still keep forgiving these people. I can't say "I never thought I'd be going no contact with my family starting on my 18th birthday" because this was always the plan. At 11 years old I realized my family didn't care about me the way that they should. I knew before than that my childhood was different from most kids. Their father didn't show up high to their 8th birthday party. Their moms didn't smack them across the face when she was angry. Their father could make it to the father daughter dance because he wasn't in jail for the 4th time. Their mothers didnt take their things away when they got a c. I know they love me. I love them too. They just never loved me the way parents should love their children. Love shouldn't be conditional. My girlfriend has shown me that. My best friend has shown me that. I have given my family my childhood. They don't get to take my adulthood too. Other things have happened to me, I'm not sure why I immediately went all out on the parent topic lolz. I mean, I guess cause it's the only thing I need to fix to be happy. I have a wonderful girlfriend, great friends, a job, a diploma and no drama of my own. I have 5 months until I don't have to deal with the problems they've projected onto me. I can be myself without feeling like everything is always my fault. It's going to be hard to leave, but for once in my life, I need to do something for myself. This is me taking control of my life. Sorry if it was a bit too edgy lolz.