my completely unorganized and boring ramblings about poetry and other stuff WILL UPDATE

>I LOVE PHILOSOPHICAL QUOTES AND EMOTIONAL ONES AND ONES THAT HAVE LESSONS. I LIKE IT WHEN THERE IS ACTUALLY POETRY TO IT. I LOVE IT. HERE. 

"Coming to the realization that, regardless of if you spend an hour doing nothing or you spend an hour doing something constructive, you still spend the exact same amount of time out of the rest of the finite hours left in your life."">having a pretty in-depth and accurate description of existential dread and the reasons behind it helps with that, because people tend to emotionally connect with statements they already believe about themselves," - Follow-Up Interview with Hakita

"He is the universe’s helpless captive, kept to fall into nameless possibilities. From this moment on, he is in a state of relentless panic." - The Last Messiah

".A species had been armed too heavily – by spirit made almighty without, but equally a menace to its own well-being" - The Last Messiah

"The tragedy of a species becoming unfit for life by overevolving one ability is not confined to humankind. Thus it is thought, for instance, that certain deer in paleontological times succumbed as they acquired overly-heavy horns. The mutations must be considered blind, they work, are thrown forth, without any contact of interest with their environment" - The Last Messiah

"If we say a robot isn’t truly conscious because it’s just reacting to inputs using pre-written code…

Then we have to ask: what are humans doing?" - I don't know

"Leviathan, come take my hand. Let us dance in anguish", "I believe the moon has begun to envelop us in a merciless light", "Won't you hold tight even though we'll forget?" - Leviathan, umbrayate

"Time does not heal all wounds." - I don't know

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hakita's quotes

i really like these quotes it wll help me in the future with how i'm going to comfort people. ok. so what im gonna do is like, i have to understand them. i have to actually say HOW i understand them. with humor. Um like "i agree life sucks/unfair" "it's a pain in the butt" and say all that stuff about life just for me to give them the good advice after. and have them ask questions. but then im gonna use their logic against them, kind of like "what would life without pain be like to you"? because we all know pain does actually have some good factors. but then after they answer that question i tell them that that's why life can be so cruel. it's not their fault that it can be so damaging to them, but they are responsible for their own health. if they don't heal now when will they?

those are only for feelings, but for things like existenstijlasjkfsdlkjsdfl;kjfsd ldread i wanna use their own logic against them, and if i can't well i'll just listen. i bet people that question their own existence get pushed down by other people so i mean just listening will help

like hakita said its really true depressed people resonate with the ones that agree with them instead of the ones that don't. i mean i guess its because of their sense of comfort and they want to be understood so maybe in the lowest situations all i can do is agree, it really depends on the person.

if the person is like close enough to have their mindset changed by a few words and encouragement i will give them good advice, but if they're stubborn to receive it and they don't wanna heal, agreeing with them will just make them feel better. kind of

maybe they might say how things are pointless, i'll agree with them because it CAN feel that way. there's nothing else i can do if they don't want help, right?

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the last messiah

The line "He is the universe's helpless captive, kept to fall into nameless possibilities" is a really nice way to describe that possibilities that have not been discovered or aren't able to be described will always fall upon us.

because everyone is in the universe, in a way, we are its helpless captives. we cant do anything about our little "space prison". with that comes its own consequences: possibilities, where no matter what people do possibilities will come to them

the reason why the man is in a state of panic is a depiction of some sort of anxiety. because of the endless possibilities, people will wonder things like: "what if i die tomorrow?" "what if i'm going to end up alone?" "what if i'm not this?" what if they're here, there, what if this, or that. 

because we are aware of the possibilities that could fall on us, good and bad, some people will be in a constant worry for their life. 

"A species had been armed too heavily" i think this is a way to describe how humans have been equipped with a lot of advantages, weapons, and technological advancement. Humans aren't exactly supposed to be trusted with this amount of weapons and danger, because i'm guessing the passage is saying that our mind/bodies are not fully develop to handle such responsibilities and power.

When it says that this is a menace to its own well being, it sounds like the passage is trying to describe that we are a danger to ourselves. because of the power, weapons, and emotional influence we have, it could lead to something disastrous. i mean take global warming and such, so many factories and smog being produced into the air yet people deny it and only make more and more machines that damage the earth

Or maybe because we hold so much power, it is a danger because humans are too emotional to deal with it efficiently. we all know what anger does to us. if it controls us we may end up harming someone/ourselves. Kind of like a "baby with a knife" situation. 

"The tragedy of a species becoming unfit for life by over evolving one ability is not confined to humankind." means that if we evolve an ability too much, to the point where it harms us or gets out of control, is another way for the end of humanity. similarly to the secret levels in ultrakill, mirage describes how intelligence is a flaw. Which like, she is right in a way.

do you ever notice that the more knowledge we gain, people tend to use it in not so good ways?have you ever heard of that line "intelligence can be dangerous" (i think that's how that went)? 

if we knew when the world was going to end, it would, in no doubt, send a mass panic around the earth. suddenly laws would be broken, crimes would be committed, suicide rates would be higher. knowledge granted to us like that would be such a flaw because humans react with so much emotion and stress to things like that

knowing things we aren't supposed to know would install some panic, anger, and confusion into our brains. people will have a hard time even comprehending a concept so far away from what we learned if it was ever true

 being aware of our existence and where we are, there are some questions that are left unanswered despite our vast knowledge. i'm sure like most people have had a point in their life where they question their own existence. where am i, who am i, am i even real? 

our inability to answer too complex questions is like a boundary to the infinite knowledge we could discover, breaking that barrier would do so, so much damage to us that it could, like in the passage, eradicate at least a large amount of our own kind. But like it said, not only humans have the ability to do that. 

As you can see in the continuation of the paragraph, it talks about a deer, implying the Irish Elk, who's horns grew so big that it eventually became the downfall of the animal because it could no longer lift up its head, and would get itself tangled and stuck. Using that as a metaphor for intelligence, you would think that its horns would be something pretty, something to admire for. So you would want more of it, right? It keeps growing and growing, until it cannot support its own body. Until the horns become a danger for the person that poesesses it. 

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Leviathan

The love I have for this song is way too big I want to explode

"Leviathan, come take my hand. Let us dance in anguish" I heavily believe this is a poetic way of describing how someone embraces another's despair and anguish, even embracing it as they both bond together in some sort of matyr bond. They seem to want to drown in anguish with someone. And as said in the song, where the person meets the other on the rooftop with their "shoes discarded"(which is referencing suicide in japan) and the way the singer saves the person from committing, this seems to already be put in some relationship. Doomed? Probably

"I believe the moon has begun to envelop us in a merciless light" Because this sentence is seasoned in a melancholic way, like I described, they say how the light, aka things like positivity and living is so big and forced upon the two that they both decide to just drown in anguish because the singer is implicated to express irritation, or disliking to the "light". 

"Won't you hold tight even though we'll forget?" This line is an implied double suicide I swear, the two are so in love that when they are dying they will hold each other even as they forget each other

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"Time doesn't heal all wounds" Is the opposite of the quote "time heals all wounds". While time can heal some wounds because it's been so long after the event, it depends how bad the wound has scarred you. If it has scarred you only a little bit, or a moderate amount, time may be able to fix it. However if it is severe, it may be something you cannot forget. Something so horrible you remember it, and the way it affects you may never heal.

A good example for that is people with PTSD. Especially those coming back from the war. No matter how long it's been, a reminder about it will set them into a panic or at least some state of negativity. 

poems

"There are some who have no voices

Or none that will ever speak

Because of the things they know about this world

And the things they feel about this world

Because the thoughts that fill a brain

That is a damaged brain

Because the pain that fills a body

That is a damaged body

Exists in other worlds

Countless other worlds

Each of which stands alone in an infinite empty blackness

For which no words are being conceive

And where no voices are able to speak

When a brain is filled only with damaged thoughts

When a damaged body is filled only with pain

And stands alone in a world surrounded by infinite empty blackness

And exists in a world for which there is no special plan"

ok so i think this means: the things you put into your mind and body result in the outcome of it. like it obviously depicts; putting damaging thoughts that deteriorate your mental health result in a weak mind, one that can't cope with life's difficulties or just does it in a very harmful way

especially the body if you always harm your body it will feel nothing but pain because you are actively giving it pain every single day

and when both ur mind and ur body are filled with painful things, you have created a world of pain. because your perspective on the world can change depending on your mental health. thus the quote "and stands alone in a world surrounded by infinite empty blackness" means that you cannot view the world as anything good because you have not ever fed any positive thoughts into your brain and only ever fed it pain and nothing else.

i think the usage of "special plan" here is your purpose or the top goal you want to achieve in your whole life. long term goals, something you really aspire for

however people who feed their mind with pain and view the world as meaningless have a lower chance of having aspirations. like: "what is the point? nothing matters anyway, everything sucks goals dont matter in this world". to view the world as meaningless will affect your goals 

i dunno

She stands at the water's edge, pondering. 

Its feet dig into the brown sugar sand.

 The sun is haloed above, but unlike their initial encounter, it does not burn.

 Death and its foreboding tolls have been long drowned out by the crashing waves

I believe the sun is a metaphor for death and the crashing waves are the peace and acceptance that comes to the character in the poem. because even as the sun is shining down on her, it doesn't burn her because she is focused by the coldness of the ocean waves or the sounds of it. 

It's like that even if you know death is right above you, you stay calm and only focus on whatever peace you have left.

The Infinite

Always to me beloved was this lonely hillside

And the hedgerow creeping over and always hiding

The distances, the horizon's furthest reaches.

But as I sit and gaze, there is an endless

Space still beyond, there is a more than mortal

Silence spread out to the last depth of peace,

Which in my thought I shape until my heart

Scarcely can hide a fear. And as the wind

Comes through the copses sighing to my ears,

The infinite silence and the passing voice

I must compare: remembering the seasons,

Quiet in dead eternity, and the present,

Living and sounding still. And into this

Immensity my thought sinks ever drowning,

And it is sweet to shipwreck in such a sea.

I think this poem is describing the feeling of being alone/lonely. and the author who wrote it finishes it off with something sweet? I think that despite the quietness, the person seems to appreciate it. 

The main character stands in an empty hillside, and as he's staring there's an "endless space still beyond, there is a more than mortal". i think it's trying to say something like: an empty space that expands, further than mortal. That empty space is like a metaphor for the landscape containing no one, to capture the feeling of how lonely the hill side is.

Silence crashes over peace, which I think means that too much silence can drive you insane. However, it seems like this character has gotten used to it. 

"The infinite silence and the passing voice. I must compare: remembering the seasons, quiet in dead eternity, and the present, living and sounding still."

This should represent what's happening in the present of this poem. The silence continues to span, the only thing interrupting it is the "passing voice", aka his own thoughts. 

He compares the eternity and the present. In eternity, everything comes to an end. At the end of life, everything grows quiet. However, in the present, which is represented to be in a present where the end has not come yet, means that people are still living and sound filled the earth. 

"And into this immensity my thought sinks ever drowning, and it is sweet to shipwreck in such a sea".

That last line. It is sweet to shipwreck is such a sea- I LOVE IT!! Because the sea if often a metaphor for drowning in thought or misery, it's so cool!

This depicts that as his thoughts start to sink deeper into his mind, as he puts it in some introspection, the ending line seems to imply that the person is content with this thought. To drown, or yet, shipwreck in this sea of thoughts/quietness is sweet. 

ok my head hurts but i WILL BE ADDING MORE TO THIS. like a. idea journal. blog.ging. yeah