First two days of school after vacation

I hate it already. First day, is just the simple introductions about the classes and what to expect, no lessons yet. So everything was okay for the most part, except for my notebooks that got wet because of that shitty new water bottle. Second day, we had to introduce ourselves, I have to repeat mine tomorrow because it wasn't creative enough. I hate speaking in front of the class. We had another introduction in a different subject, this time it was in a group. So it wasn't that bad for me I guess. Idk why tho, I think it was adrenaline that didn't make is so bad. Maybe because the creative introduction we had involved acting. So it's like oh I'm not being myself, so if they judge me, they aren't actually judging me. My eyesight is so bad, during my math teachers discussion I couldn't see anything for the most part. The light shining on the board makes everything it imposible to see. I have a lot of learning to do now, because I've forgotten every past lessons. I was gonna study on that day but my internet hasn't been fixed yet. This is the first time in days I've had internet connection. The teachers so far that I've met are nice, except for this one dude that's kinda scary. He kept saying that we didn't act like STEM students, a downgrade to the past students of the class. It made me realize that I was gonna hate this class. There's a class A and B. I'm in the A one, I just got put there without much thought. The students here smart and confident. I'm probably the dumbest in the class. I think for sure I'm not gonna make any new friends this school year but that's fine I guess. I know I'm going to hate precalculus but I think maybe I'll enjoy biology.

I don't know how to do anything, I wish I was smart and confident. I'm so brain dead.

Okay yapyap I'll go disappear again