fuck

i hate having mental problems cause its ruined my social life. Like i missed a whole semester of school cause i was in the hospital. Overall mental hospitals are a shitty place so even if u go to a really nice one its still gonna be like shit cause no one gives a fuck about the mental people. When i got out of the hospital i went to a party and omg it was so depressing. Overall it was a good party but i didnt know what to say to anybody. like im not about to share my psych ward stories. And all of my friends are chronically online so that didnt help. i dont know what the fuck their talking about like what the hell is moon cream bean or wtv the hell it is. Like omg i didnt talk to anyone. like i wasnt even them its me cause like why tf cant i just go up and say hi, now im having a mental breakdown in the bathroom like omg. So happy i left the party earlier, i love my friends but i was at my breaking point. honestly idk. just what the hell.