Weekly Entry #5 || I'm back! (with some art!) || 16_June_2025

You can't get rid of me. I'm too spiteful. 

So what happened?

The usual. (Might rant about it in my bulletins... I feel like I talk about my personal problems way too much on here...)

I'm alive again though, by definition. Alive enough to post again.

On my week "off" I...

Took my little break 

• I relaxed as much as I could. I re-watched Girls' Last Tour, my comfort anime. I'm not good at relaxing though lol. Kept being like "dammit I need to DO something!"
• Listening to That Handsome Devil again. I love how Godforbid sings about the bad parts of the world in such a poetic and witty way. His voice is also really cool. My three favorites are The Toilet That Killed Elvis, Rob the Prez-o-dent, and Johnny Wouldn't Die. Been blasting music in my headphones because nothing else is worth hearing right now.

Creatived all over the place 

• I worked on 3D modelling again, I might post pictures soon, I'm in the car and don't have them with me :( I'm actually working on fleshing out the mechanical bits. I'm guilty of using a lot of PNGs of wires lol, not modelling all that right now...

• I've also been drawing more. Finished a cool drawing of Pink Lemonade, practicing perspective, shading, and line weight. I'm pretty proud of it, I love my fuckin freak.

Went places 

• Me and my sister went to the farmers market. I'm trying to get less scared of driving, and that was the most ambitious journey I've taken yet, so I'm proud. Got some good pear soda and donuts from our favorite bakery.
• Walked to the local convenience store at night with my sister. It was really fun but we forgot to bring money lol, so we got water from the fountain.

Decided to be kind to myself 

• I've been re-assessing my expectations for myself, I feel like they are too high, and they weren't created by me. I don't want to beat myself up because I can't live up to someone else's expectations anymore, I won't even joke about this, it's been affecting me way too much to do that. This summer is the summer of fixing my mental health, but it feels like I'm in the trenches. I've been saying I'm doomed by the narrative a lot, but I think it's true. Once again, this might be a bulletin post, don't wanna vent to random strangers lol.

I finally did it... 

• I made a Tumblr ! Finally!! My username is ObieToby. I've been pestered by my friends to do it for a long time lol. I'm glad you can do CSS in there. Haven't posted anything, but have tinkered with CSS, quite on brand for me lol.

But that's about it, work has been taking up a lot of my time, but I'm making BANK in commissions. And lifting lots of heavy boxes, so it's like I'm being paid to exercise lol. I'm buff as all!

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"So how are you all doing?," (Seriously! How's life going?)

O.D.