your capable if yk u are

im 15, life hasn't exactly showed me the entirety of my experiences however, i'll say one thing, its never too late for ANYTHING. thats called change. i've been depressed for about years, i've received all kinds of therapy, drama therapy, i got assigned a psychologist, school counselling and behavioural therapy. basically my life was shitty as fuck. people out there have perhaps gone through way more awful and i do not consider my pain the worst of the worst, but i believe especially mentally, pain is unique upon many. controversially, pain has no level of comparison. i'm not the best, i will admit, but one thing i can tell you is that things have gotten better, ive changed. i've learnt to let burning memories of people burn, to accept the harsh truth as we should, to know that not every situation you have been through requires your sole responsibility and blame for and maybe it's the fault of others for once, forgiveness is the one of the best ways of gaining peace, being alone is better than being surrounded by toxicity, you can be your own friend and that can be enough for you than a whole group of people, take advice from those who actually dedicate themselves on advising you, thats effort. i've learnt that your capable of change if only you see yourself being capable of it, coming from a person who has tried to end their life numerous time. its never late for development, change, improvement. everyone is capable of it, thats the best thing about life, change isn't subjective, it's dependent. its dependent on the commitment of yourself. if you CHOOSE to WANT to CHANGE, then it can all eventually occur slowly. some things cannot be malleable within life, like the past or so, but that's fine, it may be like that for a reason. maybe that boy/girl was your ex for a reason, you can't change it no more and know that theres a much more promising love out there. however, there are many things that are much more malleable than others, you can reconnect with old relations, change your bad habits, stop drinking or smoking, start studying as one who may see themselves as an under acheiver, more and more and more. im sure as you read this, maybe something thats malleable may pop up on your mind. but just know, its never too late. NEVER. find yourself, find the person you are. find your favourite makeup style or fashion sense, your taste in music, stop sugar, adapt to new hobbies (funfact: it takes 21 days to pick up a habit), make new friends, be kind. mould your development, let it not be our of control, gain the control of your own mind and heart. its delicate. and no one else could hold such a thing. only you, your capable if you know it.