hello world! (4:02 AM)

okay, enough singing. hello and welcome to my space! i'm arsenikon, i'm 26, and i have to say that being here is like coming home. to be on a social media site that doesn't look blue, white and sterile in the year 2021 is a gift from the universe. being able to post glitter graphics everywhere, and saying whatever the fuck i want into this infinite void without having to be monitored is exactly how i wanted my internet presence to be like when i was thirteen. and now, it's here: a revival of myspace 1.0! everything, everything comes back. 

clearly, i created a spacehey for the nostalgia. the word 'nostalgia' is made up of two ancient greek words: 'νόστος', meaning 'return', and άλγος, meaning 'pain'. in other words, nostalgia is the pain of coming home. they were absolutely right, too. i felt a small twinge of agony at being four years away from thirty, logging into a near-perfect replica of tom anderson's myspace. i was seeking digital solace. i remember being twelve, talking to my best friend on AIM, and editing my myspace that looked similar to this page. it was a glittery mess then, and it's the same now. i never grew out of it. the more things change, the more things stay the same. i long for the past, but the present really isn't that much different. in many ways, it's better. in some ways, it's worse.