Father's Day and today.

Father's day was so fun for me and my dad. We ate breakfast at a hotel and did a bit of shopping. I let him try out this mocha flavored body wash which he really liked. I also gifted him a shirt saying "Best Dad in the Galaxy" :) 

And of course he promised me a visit to a cat cafe. I tried uploading an image of a cat sitting on me but it wont load for some reason. 

Today, I wasn't feeling so great in the morning. I do struggle with mental illness so it makes daily life difficult often. Especially when i live in the hostel by myself far from home. I met up with a few friends in university for lunch and class, it was fun, but...

Even though my friends smile at me, there's a part of me that coaxes me to think "They dont actually like you" or "They're just pretending to be your friends". I noticed this train of thought and I tried not to buy into it. I was my authentic self and I even managed to open up to one of my buddies about my struggles.

Even though she's busy with assignments she told me to call her if anything was bothering me. I also got to make conversation with a mutual friend of mine.

It shouldn't be an issue to express my feelings and struggles, but living in an Asian country, it's something thats just sort of built into you. It's like an autoimmune disease where it's not other people provoking me but my own mind. I hope I can settle down my anxieties and live comfortably some day.

This was kind of a heavy topic but writing it into my entry helps make my chest lighter. Anyways, this is all I have to say for now. :o) <--- (Thats a smiley with a big nose)