my middle school experiences!!

Heyy so these are just some of my middle school experiences!! There are just gonna be random things, and reasons im moving schools!

i had to sensor alot because of spacehey rules

6th grade-

So i remember one day i was standing in line for FACS. (Family and Consumer Science) and this boy we will call "K", was talking to a guy we will call "P". K said to P "yea i like her", and P was confused and said "her?" and pointed at me thinking K was saying that he liked me. K said "ew no not her she is ugly" to my face, and then i cried for the rest of the day. but this year in 8th grade i liked him for 3 months even though he said that to me 😭

Not a lot happened in 6th grade but this is like the last thing that i really remember... So if i get comfortable in something, it takes a lot for me to not wear it. like when its winter and i wear hoodies everyday (different ones). it takes a lot for me in the spring at school to not wear a hoodie, because i get comfortable wearing them. im also very self conscience hope that makes sense, but everyday i would wear a black zip up jacket. don't worry i would wash it but i would wear it everyday, and everyday that i wore it. which was like 125 days i would get called emo by this one guy, and he would say "are you emo, i think your emo". EVERY SINGLE DAY like bro please shut up 🙏 and he would NOT miss a day...

7th grade-

So in 7th grade i was friends with this one girl we will call ''M'' and she was friends with this one girl called "A''. For backstory M was a atheist and when she would make tiktok videos she would have cannibal corpse posters in the background, and no one really cared. i mean people would still make fun of her because she was goth but not a lot. but then i guess M and A had a fight and A told everyone in the school even the 6th and 8th graders, that she was a satanist. and since everyone in my school is a christian so they started making fun of her WAY more, for examples they would put there fingers in a cross symbol and put it up to her, also they would be like " oh ~~ didn't you say you like M?" and using her name as a insult, and saying a lot of bad stuff even though she was not a satanist. but since i was friends with her they started making fun of me too. telling me that i needed to go to church, and just talking bad about me. i mean not as bad as they were talking about M but it was still bad. but then A apologized and M forgave her for some reason even though she ruined her whole middle school experience, but thats not my business. there still friends now and A still talks bad about her. but yea...

OK so this is like the main thing that happened, so its gonna be a lot. so i liked this guy ''G'' and M was friends with G, so M told him that i liked him. we had literally never talked before btw, but after 6th period he came up to me and said ''do you wanna be my gf'' and i obviously said yes because i liked him, and i mean he was cool at first.. like he liked anime and was very sweet and stuff but then he changed after like a week of dating. so i basically felt comfortable enough to tell he about my sh and he said that if i ever c*t myself, or even hurt myself (not of purpose) that he would c*t himself. so one day i fell on the ground and scraped my foot very badly, and sent him a picture. he said that since i had been in pain, he wanted to be to 10x worse pain so he c*t himself. at least thats what he told me. but i saw nothing on his arms the next day, which was where he told me he had c*t himself. but then he said if i ever broke up with him he would khs which was obviously not true. but then he flashed me on call and it was very weird. but this was the worst thing he did, so we were calling and idk how we got to talking about it but we were talking about TW...... rape and he said "what even is r*pe" and so i told him what it was, and gave him a example and ik it can happen with and age. but i just told him and 3 year old and a 40 year old having sex, and he started laughing... and i was like "what's funny" and he said "just the thought of a 40 year old fucking a 3 year old" and automatically i hung up and ignored him for the rest of the day. like wtf that's completly weird to say. so the next day at school he apologized but was still laughing while apologizing, so when we got home i told him i wanted to break up, and we did. btw he bought me a hello kitty pajama pants and they had a BIG whole in them and weren't even the right size, and he put my face on a computer mouse like what.. but yea every time he gets a new gf he always looks at me to see if im looking cause i mean, i was his first and best gf but yea...

So we were having field day, which means every grade was outside. while i was outside i saw this 8th grade boy, and thought he was cute. so my friends told him i thought he was cute, and he gave me his number. we talked for like 3 days and he asked me to be his gf so i said yes, then he stared being like really mean and it was weird, he also jo to a picture of me WHILE WE WERE CALLING like bro what. so i broke up with him after dating for like 4 days.

So i lowkey regret being friends with M and ima tell yall why. so M had a rough childhood her mom and dad left her so she had to live with her grandpa. so she got into smoking and bad stuff like that, and since i was friends with her i wanted to be like her. so one day she told me she was dating this 19 year old, and she was 13. so she like convinced me it was normal. so i started talking to WAY older guys, and getting into relationships with them. which was very not good but i thought it was ok. i mean still am talking to those WAY older guys BUT... i am trying to stop because i know its not good, but idk she kinda just convinced me it was ok.  i mean she 14 dating a 17 year old now but wtv.

8th grade-

Ok so ill start with the little stuff first. i still get bullied and get called ugly, emo, depressed. but people also say to me "oh she can talk" like yes im not mute dumbass tf like??

OK SOOO i liked this guy for 6 years.. and so ill make this short. so we started talking and within 2 weeks of TALKING he told me i love you well, i mean he really said "te amo" but wtv. so i asked him if we would ever start dating and he said that he wanted to meet me first, which i completely get but he asked me to go to the fair with him which my parents don't allow me to because it always gets shot up. but then he asked if i could go to a football game with him, but like the day before the football game there was a tornado so i wasn't allowed to go so then i told him i could go to the next one and he said ok. then that Monday he told me we could still be friends but he didnt wanna continue are like talking stage, and i cryed all day. to make it short he streams on twitch and he was streaming with his cousin and we were texting back and fourth and he was NOT being dry or anything. then he says to his cousin "ughh this bitch he pissing me off" so i blocked him on everything. he also said to me "yea we would never work out, i like fucking" so i said to him "oh you've had sex" and he said "no but almost" LIKE BRO WHAT but yea thats like it. i still miss him tho. i didnt write a lot of stuff that happened so your welcome.

BUT YEA THATS IT

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING!!! 😊