road journey to whatever i am rn ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

since we're halfway thru pride month, i wanna talk abt my experiences as an abrosexual masc nonbinary

just a month before june i was still identifying as a trans man (for abt likeee 4 years) if you were to tell me a few months ago i'd be growing out my hair and be more accepting of my feminity i'd probably laugh and cry at the same time

Back when i was younger i was kindaaa confused on why there were only 2 genders, i always didn't know which bathroom to go in, i always thought there's gonna be a third option for little ol' me ('-')

but then covid hits, a year into covid i was chronically online constantly online on discord and found out more and more abt queer identities, so at first i came out as bisexual and genderfluid

a year in i was questioning myself again bcos i always thought of myself as someone who's masc since i was rlly rlly young, so i came out again as a bi trans man 

but recently after 2 years of cutting off two toxic ppl in my life, i discovered how much of my identity were still conformed to heteronormality, i questioned if i even saw myself as a man, i always thought of myself as 'masc' not 'man', i also questioned my own sexuality, it's a really weird thing bcos i somehow associate myself with both 'gay' and 'lesbian' but not any of the multigender sexualities

so in the end i've come to terms that i'm actually nonbinary and abrosexual, and i've been fairly happy, content and comfortable in my own body and my identity.

4 anyone who's going thru the same thing as me, don't worry, take ur time, ur identity is something important to be discovered, but by then you'll be able to find yourself sooner or later.

happy pride month everyone <3