June 15, 2025

i had a dream about u last night. it felt so surreal. i can recall it in a spitting clear memory. i thought it was real life. i hoped it was real life. i remember the way u looked into my eyes. i remember ur voice piercing the air tht engulfed me. i remember u holding me. it felt so real. i wished it was. i can remember smelling u. the fact it wasnt real breaks me down beyond repair. i dreaded the thought of waking up, which i didnt know was possible yet.. till i realized it wasnt real.. then i dreaded the thought of staying there any longer. i remember u asking me to lay with u. no way this wasnt real. the way it felt to be wanted by u. ur warm embrace, the grasp u trapped me in. u asked me to stay. tht was all u wanted…tht was all i wanted…tht was all WE wanted. tht was all we needed. u consumed my thoughts and now its bleeding over into my dreams. ur all i think about, ur all i dream about. ur so beautiful, ur so gorgeous, ur so consuming. and u have consumed me. its insane, the concepts of ur inner workings and ur arts. ur so close to me, yet ur so far from me. what is happening to me now..? why is this all i feel, all i see, all i think abt. i just hope i see u again tonight in my dreams. i hope the dreams never stop. i hope for them to become reality. i cant work my head around the realism. the way ur presence lingers throughout my day…its eerie.