im going to sob

so i was helping my aunt with setting uo food, i was wearing short sleeves-

uhhhh how to word this, she saw my arm and said "Holy shit (my name) thats a lot!" and she said it loudly, theres people visiting so i think they heard, and when i kept telling her to stop repeating it, i was almost crying. 

now, i have no one to rant abt to this who would actually care, or respond uhm it was pretty wmbarrsing, considering im almost 2 months clean it hurt kinda...

anyways, i was helping her put the dishea down and the food she made was fish, macaroni salad, ribs you get it yeah, there was a lot of food, i ate a little bit of macaroni salad and my dog took off with my fish - after i ate like half of it. i puked thos both up.

i dont feel that sad anymore- that was like...idk 

uhh i hope u hve a good day or night, wheveer you are!!