dating is not for me

I am unsure why I'm typing this at the moment... i must warn you or whoever reads this i am not the best speller i don't use those mark things (idk what they are called i forgot) but i wanted to come here and say whats on my mind since im waiting for my noodles to be done

TW for idk mental health shit

I like cooking i adore cooking some say i love it and which i do i love cooking what i dont love is people asking when ill date i dont want to date i hate dating i tried it and found out i hate it when i tell people this they say that i didnt find the right person maybe they are right but i dont care i hated my relationship the person i was dating is a wonderful person i dont hate them what i hated was the thought of being with someone in that way we broke up on good terms and agreed we werent working we are friends and now even laugh at the memories of us dating how we were stupid and weird and Awkard 

when i told my friends about it how i wanted to end my relationship they asked why or what they did the person i was with didnt do anything and i told them but i guess they didnt believe be or wanted to get some drama out of me but there was nothing. nothing bad nothing at all i am to busy on modeling and working on my acting and softball then a relationship in so were they sometimes if im honest i would forget im dating them when i was focused on things which now we both laugh at as they used to forget too 

though at the moment i hate dating i know i am still discovering who i am as a person so i gotta say i dont HATE it i think im just not ready for it yet as i am still 15 and a freshman i have classes and sports acting and modeling to work on and also i must learn to love myself as well

as i learned in this relationship you have to love yourself before dating or it wont work out i hate myself for multipul reasons but i know ill have to work on that before anything and so far i am doing pretty good working on my mental and my physical body im doing better than before 

and since my mental is doing better im proud of myself 

but yeah thats all idk why i type this long just for random shit but i love typing i love writing and taking photos of flowers and painting them

im a simple girl 

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