Being an absolute dweeb

Dude oh my fucking God. I recently got back into Hellsing because my partner is super fixated on it right now and fuck dude I got attached to one of the most stupidest characters. Actually that's fucked I retract that statement, Rip Van Winkle is NOT stupid. I got to the episode she appears in and then when I knew she was about die I got HELLA uneasy. Like my dumbass thought I could do something to prevent it or something. When her death scene came on I genuinely felt tears forming in my eyes, holy shit dude that mother fucker Alucard. Fuck dude I genuinely started bawling. I sat there just dumbfounded that happened, fuck dude don't ever fall for a crazy chick that's doomed to be obliterated. The most stupidest and corniest part of this is that I put on my headphones, and blasted the Join Me in Death demo by HIM and ugly CRIED. I turned my phone away so I wouldn't have  any light in my room. I laid down in complete darkness crying to that chick's death. Shit occasionally I would grasp onto my pillow thinking it's her and fucking BAWLED during the chorus. Like dude I'm still crying a little. Once again DON'T EVER get a crush on a MF who you KNOW is gonna die horribly.