My life story so far:

Hi! Trigger warning for general trauma, bad stuff, and parental issues. my life kinda blows.

My name... Is something id rather not share. but lets go with just "1x" based off my username.

I was born and raised in a town I doubt any of you would know, to a school that has to be one of the most mediocre schools ever, and to a newly single mother after some domestic issues involving my father using my mother is a punching bag. That's a funny way of saying she divorced his bum ass after he hit her one too many times. 

I idolized my mother my entire life, or at the very least I respected her. Though after a toxic breakup, some stalking, and a lot of medical issues. She went to put it lightly, batshit insane. So I moved in with her sister, who lives somewhere in Hawaii. It's kinda tough adjusting to these people, I'm so used to words not meaning much, but here everyone gets so pressed when I say things I don't really mean. I mean, not that I blame them. 

I never got my learners or drivers license. I've had opportunity to but I always fumbled them due to apathy (in the beginning), life issues, or my mother being... my mother.

I think I'm a mess of a person, but that's okay. I mean, to me at least. One of my bestie's said that I missed a lot of developmental checkpoints and I think I kinda get that. I've been through a lot and that's left me so behind in life. I'm in a better place for right now and I'm learning to take steps forward. 

I hope theirs someone on here who can relate to my lack of progress and general issues. Theirs a whole other host of things, my love life's a mess/nonexistent, the only reason I'm alive is spite and envy, I'm transgender and I hate my body.

but I don't wanna make this to vent, I mean, I do a little. But even more than that, I hope you can gain some semblance of hope from this. 

for as much as I live to surpass people, for as much I envy those who've had it easier, even past a general distain for some people. I hope that from whatever I've gone through, you never have to go through. And that if you went through something similar, that im still standing, and I will continue to fight for whatever life I have left, and you should too. 

(and sorry if this is the wrong board or something, Im new here and feel like getting my story out. I'm gonna study for my learners right now. Have A wonderful day!!!)