I MIGHT REJOIN MY BAND!??!!

okay this is a pretty long ass story so prepare yourself to read a whole lot

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so the school year is split up into 3 terms and i moved to my current school in the 3rd term which is the time the year is ending but this school was my OLD school. i already knew a lot of the people there since a lot of them stayed ya knoww.

okay so i basically joined this band on the second day of school, my friend was leading me around the school and during break time he led me to the band since "he was helping them out" (he just watched). i was telling them about the last band i was in where i played bass but everyone in the band left, they NEEDED a bassist so they proposed i joined. they were practicing for an audition to a talent show in our school. theres a gazzilion more details about the show i could talk about but thats not what this is about, but hey tell me in the comments if you WANT me to yap about it!!!

now onto WHY i left the band. teh last term is usually stressful as FUCK!! theres a gazillion tests and i have a bunch of after school stuff my parents signed me up for. my band wanted to perform for graduation and the song they picked out was "no surprises". listen, i like radiohead but this is just NOT  a good graduation song, its sad as hell and i dont wanna spend hours on end practicing for a song that makes me depressed. because of all the stress my therapist suggested i dropped two of my non-required stuff. so i left the band and i stopped taking photography. they dont really need a bassist anyways, when they proposed i joined the said tehy wanted me there to "complete the band" and "its okay if they dont hear you". they wanted a bassist for the SAKE of having a full band and that made me feel like shit. they werent just band members but they were also my friends so i still spoke to them after i left.

with all of this being said, why do i want to rejoin the band??? welllll i finished most of the important tests i needed to do so the work we have isnt required since its not graded and my parents have literally been forgetting about my after school stuff so ive been skipping. the band is in shambles right now since they spent months practicing no surprises and the head of school told them to change it because it was "too sad". so now they are doing a song that i dont know but i DO know its made by the cranberries. graduation is next wednesday and they have to practice a new song. for the talent show auditions. i learnt a new song a day before the audition and still managed to get in, i think i can handle having a week to practice. also i got a lot of compliments being a bassist, they thought i was playing guitar actually so thats why. i mean im not gonna correct them, i like the attention. i felt happy being in a band w my friends, id rather be a loser that plays bass than just a loser.

there ARE a few cons though. the teacher thats helping us out is a DICK. she was pissed when i left and shes gonna be even MORE pissed trying to see me rejoin. its too big of a risk for a school i just joined, my reputation is already bad enough, i cant make it worse. also the presenters already have all the scripts ready for whos names theyre gonna say out loud, i dont wanna cause them any trouble since im friends with some of them and they complain about the stress all the time, SO IDK!!!

right now, i only told one of the members about how i might rejoin, she says she misses me being in the band and right now is the only thing that made me actually consider doing this. so right now im in the band just not in this performance.

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hey its me editing this on the bus using my phones hotspot, its too late for me to rejoin.

i cant rejoin, the performance is already happening, i was already replaced.

if i want to rejoin i need to talk to that mean ass teacher again. they keep on saying "oh yeah shes really kind shes not that bad!!" as if she wasnt yelling at me while i was crying. 

im just reaaaaally pissed off because they want to make this an exclusively school band, they just care about performing in public on a stage. so i need to get the permission of like 7 different music teachers that all hate me. i can find a new band im pretty sure, nobody wants to play bass in a band so i reckon itll be easy to find a band that needs a bassist. actually screw that were the only band in our school im just gonna be stuck with nobody.

i mean there IS some good news and that is im getting evicted and might be moving countries so i can try to find a band there right???? RIGHT????

im just too tired for this. i usually sleep on the bus but instead im sitting here writing about how jealous i am of my friends