the ones who never see me

I walk the night in silence, scars beneath my sleeves

Cold wind howls like voices I can’t ever leave

A mirror full of strangers, I can’t bear the sight

Dysphoria’s a demon that grips me every night

They say the past is over, but it breathes in me

Three ghosts in my shadow, and they’ll never set me free

I scream into the static, no one ever hears

So I bleed into the silence just to feel I’m here

I’m broken but breathing, dead but still dreaming

Living in a world that swore I should be leaving

I don’t want your pity, I don’t want your praise

Just want to be someone who can live through the day

Love feels like a lie that I choke down to survive

Even when you hold me, I’m barely alive

My voice is wrong, my body’s a cage

Female bones in a male soul, every breath is rage

Skin I didn’t ask for, eyes that never shine

Hair that won’t obey me, curves that aren’t mine

I run until I’m shaking, I purge till I’m cold

But nothing makes me worthy, nothing makes me whole

I’m broken but breathing, cracked and retreating

Drowning in a world that’s always misleading

Don’t tell me it’s better, I’ve heard it before

Just give me a reason I should stay one day more

And if I fade tonight, would you even cry?

Or just whisper my name like a funeral lie?

I’m sorry I’m heavy, I’m sorry I’m loud

Sorry I was never someone you were proud of

I’m broken but breathing, haunted and grieving

Trying to find hope in the wreckage I’m leaving

Say you don’t hate me, even if it’s not true

Cause all I ever wanted…

was to be seen by you