Y IS GETTING A GF SO HARD?!?!

Ok so as we kno I'm a girl who likes girls (and guys from time to time) and like I personally prefer more masculine females yk the kind who are like tomboys with a slight feminine side like masc and studs kinda thing yk and like ITS SO HARD TO FIND THEM ATM like they're either in a rls, has a roster, or seem too cool for me to talk to them and like it's so weird bc if it was guy I could easily talk to him but when it comes to women I'm so freaking awkward and it's so WEIRDDDDDD!!! And like every time I've had a gf she always approaches me and it's never the other way around and I jst wanna learn to talk to girls bc I've been lonely for so freaking long and like I can't do ts no more!!! o(T□T)o- staryy☆