Is there a better purpose for me?

I feel like I don't belong in this world, it all seems really pointless sometimes

I can find joy in being here but I feel like there's a greater purpose, a greater world, a greater body. If I could just break the glass I could get there if I just connected, I don't belong in my body at all

If there's a higher level, I want to go up there. 

I think i can understand Heaven's Gate. Why they wanted to ascend, I think they just did it too fast. They could ascend if they just died and rose again like he promised

My ideas are conflicting with my devotion to God though.. I'm not done with my missions so I can ascend once I die