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I dont wanna die, i wanna live...
i wanna feel alive, i kinda wish i was a scenemo kid in the 2010s drawing dumb shit on my sketchbook without feeling like a poser or able to dress like one :(
i wanna be free, learn what's it like being a dumb teenager but all i think is; how will i live? what house will i get? what job will i do? how will i transition? IM TIRED OF ACTING LIKE A GROWN UP IM 15 FOR FUCKS SAKEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111
But there's this looming thought in my mind, almost fantastical in a way
a daydream of me living with my friend and lovers...and being able to transition and see me in the mirror, i feel happy in that version of me, i wanna be that man but i cant cause im a clueless kid whos the son of pinoy immigrants
it feels so impossible and i wish this will just be a phase,,,, i wanna be me, i wanna live to grow wrinkles i wanna grow old
genuinely i wanna live but everyday i feel like slipping further and further from it. im tired but i wanna live
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Izzy
Trust me, just take it one day at a time. I get caught up worrying about the future too, but all you can do is focus on the now and take small steps towards your goals in the now.