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It's 2 am rn

I have a test tomorrow, and the day after

I've spent the entire school year without studying at all and now I'm actually trying and its so so tiring. Tbh idek why I have some of the grades I do, I feel like I dont deserve them at all...

I should have slept earlier for the test tomorrow, but there's this dread inside of me rn that I cant shake. I joined a call in the gc to just hear people talk in the bg, I  didn't even speak for the most part and just doodled on ms paint.

There's this guy in the gc that I originally met in 2022, and it wasn't a very nice meeting...

We actually argued and blocked eachother and it was over some stupid thing and the next time we spoke to eachother since then was a few days ago.

I feel like I want to be his friend. We actually have some things in common, some music taste and even the fact that we both draw.

But I don't think he really wants to... And I also dunno how to approach the situation... I just sent him a playlist I had on spotify and asked him if those bands were considered spanish indie rock.

I was so afraid of his answer, specially seeing the old messages between us appear on the screen (this is thru discord so the convos dont get deleted), I actually muted him for like two hours bc I'm afraid of what he might say...

God I'm such a loser!!

I should be trying even harder these last few days because school ends this week but I'm so tired I can't bring myself to do it...

Aaaaaa I hate myself so muchhh