vent- need advice asap

Literally so much is going on. I live in America, the deportations are just cruel. No one is illegal on stolen land. and where is Trump's empathy for these people? and in my personal life im just trying to be better for myself. i do pilates, try to eat healthy, stay healthy mentally. I kinda argued with my friend over politics and it scared me so much because shes my only friend and i dont wanna lose her. Sometimes i feel like its my fault but not really. I have to text her a thousand times to get a response. she randomly stops texting until the next day and doesnt say why even if i ask. Im scared to bring it up because what if she thinks im mad at her? im not im just worried. Its summer im supposed to be out doing things but i cant. i dont have anyone to go with and my parents are still clinging to me like im a baby still. my parents get mad over little things. it usually starts with my dad. then my mom gets mad and she lashes out on me over small things like waking up late or taking too long to get ready, or not knowing what something is when she expects me to. or not explaining something clearly when i think i do. i stand up for myself and try to explain to her that she needs to calm down but its so tiring. I just want someone to hangout with that i dont have to worry about them leaving me or hating me over a opinion. I wanna go out to the library or someplace without being watched over by a hawk and think i'll do something wrong.

Im 13. im not supposed to be this exhausted. Can someone please giveme advice? Im taking care of myself and stuff its just the things going on around me.