monday march 1st, 2021

i am extremely heated rn. like i could beat the shit out of someone thats how mad I am currently. but before I explain that , I'll just go through an over view of my day. I was supposed to have my class on campus today but i fell asleep maad late, and didnt wake up in enough time to arrive on time to my class, and cuz of covid, i cant just show up when I want, I have to be there a specific time and leave by a specific time. So i ended up waking up at around 9 am, when I should have been awake by 4 am.... i ended up getting a bacon egg and cheese on a hero with ketchup and mayo, and a monster energy drink, cuz bad bitches drink monster. after this me and my mom went to the bank cuz I had to take the money out for my car, cuz if i didnt take it out and give it to her I would have spent it. we took an uber home cuz it was bricccck. we got home around like 2pm, i ended up taking like a blink, cuz i closed my eyes, then opened them and it was 4:00 lmaoo. after thiss i came up with my plan to ensure I graduate on time. it was a little hard to do this because im a fashion major, and since the program is so small at my school, certain classes are only given like once a year, so I had to take that into consideration. Im taking 2 classes this summer, 4 classs next fall, 2 classes next winter, and then I only need 3 classes the following spring to graduate. Im probably gonna take 4 classes still so financial aid will cover everything still, maybe I'll just take a loan idk yet. Im currently in my italian class, and like every class my teacher keeps talking past the time for class. It's 8:00pm, and class ended at 7:55... he usually does this every class and will keep talking till like 8:15 if no one says anything. Now for the reason im pissed tf off. honestly at this point i feel like im doing this shit to myself.. seriously. So ive been dating this guy on and off since I was 14, and hes been treating me like shit recently no lie. So he told me not that long ago he wanted to slow things down,... cool whatever, then he did some other dumb shit.... and then today, i get sent a screenshot of a tinder account with his name, his pictures, all new pictures of him and everything andx I was so heated... like I never wanted to beat the shit out of someone sooo much.... then hes gonna givee me some bs excuse that he downloaded it one time when him his friends were high and they wantd to do some stupid joke or whatever from it and I aint buying that. i swear im never gonna let a man make me feel this angry, hurt, betrayed, and sad every again. like seriously. I feel like sammi sweetheart from jersey shore finding the note snooki and jenni wrote her. Im soo mad, and like embarassed. AND to top it off I was supposed to be going to a party as this kids date tonight, a party of all his friends and Iwas gonna look soooo stupid if I went... im so happy I found this shit before i even started getting ready to go to brooklyn on the train. anyways... im working a double tomorrow at my main job, so hopefully I have a good time doing that. im gonna take myself on a cute little date during the break between my shifts and just try to forget about all this.