urges and addiction

im trying really hard to not go back on my word i want to get better but its been very hard i want to use this blog to talk and help others that may be struggling with these forms of addictions or urges. ive recently had to stop my own boyfriend from acting on his urges and thoughts holding someone whose bleeding and going in and out of being awake is very very scary and no one helped us and i dont want it to be that way for anyone else please reach out to anyone that you think could help you parents friends family even me if you feel okay with doing so. i love you all and please take care of yourselves. Xx