Turning 25 today

Today's my birthday, I'm now 25 years old and I don't know what to think.

My life just stopped 6 years ago, I feel like I haven't grown up since. I don't know what to do with my life, I try to cling to the few friends I have left with whom I don't do much outside of some occasional Discord call. I guess I'm doing OK, I rent my own flat, have a good job and no money issues. But I used to have so much ambition about life, about what I wanted to do and I feel like I'm just wasting my life year after year. 

And I'm just so damn lonely. I miss my old friends so much, we had nothing in common but that's what I liked. We would do things I would have never done alone, I discovered music I never heard before, went to places I never tried nor dared to go to. I've never been able to find people like that again, now everyone just wants to hang out with people like them with the same interests. I guess I'm just the nerdy guy, the one no cool people want to hang out with.

In the end this birthday was OK, just the regular work day. I clocked out and went back to my place like any other day. My family will probably phone me this evening to greet me and that will be it. Maybe I'll buy some pizza or something to make this day at least a bit more special than the others.

Sorry for venting.