shit justs gets worse and worse

well fuck so basically my mom got strict ass restrictions on my phone cause when i used to be a full blown junkie cause she didnt want me buying drugs and shit so she removed them but all of sudden shes being shizo about me relasping which has me mad like im not a junkie anymore why the fuck are you still acting like im over here cutting myself and huffing spray paint like dead ass what reason do i have to not fucking relaspe like fuck might asw just releapse so i was mad she put restrictions back on my phone so i smashed it and now im like holy fuck im retarded for smashing my phone and yesterday theres this kid shes been trying to basically force me to friends with named joshua so we were never close just like a person id say hi to from time to time and my mom said "why dont yall ever talk what did you do eli" which is like WHY THE FUCK YOU ASSUMING I DID ANYTHING and she was like why dont you wanna be friends with him because he dosent do drugs which is like no im friends with multiple people who dont do drugs like fuck is your problem treating me like shit if she keeps treating me like a junkie might asw become a junkie like i used to