my day started with, I guess, a fight between my parents? idk, but I heard a door slam and my dad sat in his truck for like an hour. anyway, the door slamming woke me up at like 4:15, mind you, I had gone to bed at 12:00 AM, so I had gotten 4 hours of sleep.

I spent the next two-ish hours or so trying to fall back asleep till I was like, "you know what?? fuck it! I'm gonna go on a fucking walk at 5:40 AM!". cause I had been in situations before where Ive had to lay in bed and wait, and it sucks. so I went on a fucking walk at 5:40 AM! I made myself some coffee, went out, and it was fucking beautiful. I had never seen my neighborhood so early in the morning, and I'm so glad I did. 

I was really happy, sorta just cause I decided I was gonna be. I know that's not how it works for a lot of people, but I decided I was gonna forget about all my problems for a little bit and be carefree.

I think that one of the key components of being like this is acting like you have all the time in the world, even if it's short. I definitely should have done this when time was a little tighter, and I had school, cause I feel it would be waayyyy funner. I just took my time and enjoyed things. also after the walk I sat on my swing and sang along to music on my phone for like an hour cause its fucking fun as heelllll. anyway, I had a pretty good morning, I hope you have an amazing day.